Monday, 23 May 2016

the female gaze.

Locations on show: Cinsy's apartment and Madeleine cafe, London.
Subjects on show: Cinsy Tam.
Camera used: Hasselblad 500c with a 50mm lens.
Film type: Kodak Portra, 400.

The gaze is a social utility of photography, it allows the viewer to gather a personal expression from the subject. We gather a sense of recollection in the structure of a photograph, small glimpses of recognition springs to mind as we look at the pose of a subject or examine the objects that are positioned into the frame. Many of these works can be compared to historical paintings, from the high and early renaissance we are reminded that these pieces of art works have influenced photography by showcasing the true identity of the subject.

Photography is still different from painting, brush strokes begin to surface, the detail slowly becomes more abstract as the visual reality is translated into paint. With photography you see more definition than in reality by being able to remain in focus from looking at the surface of a photograph up close. The eye of the seer is only a metaphor for the pre-existence of the gaze. It is the ‘shoot’ (pousse), something prior to the eye. Perhaps a photograph can capture a gaze better than a painting, as Lacan's studies on the gaze are from researching an immediate effect. Unlike a painting that is not as sudden or vast as witness or a photograph. In this manner, the process of eye perceives more expeditiously than the hand can draw or paint.

The subject of a photograph who is unaware that he or she is being captured would reveal the “truth” about himself or herself. Whereas a subject who is conscious and fully aware about the camera that points towards them, would alter themselves into a false position. He or she would create their own mode of representation in hope that it would hide their real selves from the photographer.

Looking at the gaze through a medium of art such as photography, we assume the subject is either the surveyor or being surveyed. Women depict differently from men. Not because of masculinity and femininity, but because the 'ideal/typical' observation is assumed to be a male. If a camera were to be placed in between the man and woman, it would be the man who over looks from behind, the image that the woman creates is designed to flatter.

Saturday, 14 May 2016

eleven till four.

Locations on show: Wetherspoons, TALK nightclub, Southend on Sea.
Camera used: Olympus XA2.
Film type: Agfa Vista 200.

I was never the type to spend the night in the basement of the sea front arcades, my lack of desire for a fake ID did not affect my social life during school. Upon my returns to my old home town, Southend, I have finally reached that opportunity of exploring the levels and darkness of nightlife by the sea. Sitting in booths at Wetherspoon's drinking woo-woo's by the litre, applying regular layers of MAC lipstick in the girls bathrooms, reassuring the new Louis Vuitton purse is zipped up securely. The worry and concern of reality is danced away, sometimes tears are shed or strong hugs are shared. By the end of the night none of those souls you danced closely against matter, with closed eyes the neon lights share patterns on my lids, alcohol links us all into the same state of fulfilment. But the most important value is sharing a box of chips with your friends in the car ride home.

Tuesday, 12 April 2016

Short, Back and Sides.

(Short, Back and Sides preview)

Locations on show: Nigel's Barbers, Headcase - Farnham
Subjects on show: Thisseas, Joshua.
Camera used: Hasselblad 500c with a 50mm lens.
Film type: Ilford HP5 Plus 400, Delta 400.

As a young lady entering what seemed like a forbidden territory, Barber shops are an unfamiliar space to me. I discovered that these parlours are particularly used for gentlemen who gather around to socialise, to be offered a beer during their shave or to receive a shoe polish as they repose in the leather reclining chair. The clarity of the barber shops creates a sharp and prominent aesthetic, there is a strange warming comfort that feels welcoming from both the interior and the barbers.

I was intrigued to find out what happened behind those closed doors, peering through the large glass windows only seemed to have captured the reflection of street furniture and the high pace of surrey's finest classic cars. The accessibility of being able to step into a Barber shop is a lot more elementary during this current moment in time. Traditionally, many Barber shops started out in the backs of gentlemen's bathrooms, hence the appeal for a clinical, minimal interior at a place such as Nigel's.

There were a few moments of patronisation, neglect and humiliation. The reaction I had witnessed during my journey of cutting the boundaries revealed that a small variety of Barbers would not allow a lady like myself to remain in an environment strictly for a gentleman's use. In an attempt to make my potential subjects more at comfort, I slipped off the little Italian heels and opted for a pair of tasseled loafers. A high neck jumper and tailored trousers allowed myself to believe that I was able to embrace my inner masculinity, I felt the urge to blend into a space I am deeply fond of documenting. Although my femininity and appearance still shone like a beacon of light, my duration at the Barber shops I was able to photograph made me feel at ease. A sense of homeliness and comfort was quickly established by the Barbers and clients. The empty appeal of the distantly spaced chairs and illusive mirrors was regardless to this type of energy as this brought myself fondness, despite the fact of being a lady.

This series has been made into a book as a combination of image and text, available on request.
hand bound with leather, mount card, tracing paper and waxed thread. A total of thirty six pages containing twenty six photographs.

Saturday, 2 April 2016

Green Tea Coconut Latte

Matcha 抹茶 
Pronounced maa - cha
A finely ground powder of specially grown and processed green tea. 


- 1 Teaspoon of Kineta Organic Matcha Powder
- 1/4 Cup of Hot Water
- 2/3 Cup of Coconut Milk
- A squeeze of Agave Nectar

1. Placing the teaspoon of matcha into a cup, whisk the powder lightly until all the lumps and bumps are gone. Add the hot water and mix until the matcha has dissolved.

2. Heat the milk, froth and whisk if desired. I used coconut, but almond could be tasty!

3. Add a little bit of sweetener such as agave nectar to your tasty. Matcha is a very earthy flavour but is complimented with a squeeze of syrupy goodness.

Kineta's Japanese Green Tea might be petite, but it has lasted me very well. Just by adding a sprinkle of the powder over yoghurt or in smoothies gives any meal a slight earthy flavour. A delicious and healthy ingredient that can be purchased on their website or through Amazon and receive 10% off with the discount code V1T8L1TY !

Sunday, 6 March 2016

Pear, Dark Chocolate and Apricot Cake.

This cake is my masterpiece, my favourite creation. You can not go wrong with the sweetness of the pears and the richness from the pockets of dark chocolate. I would like to think this is appropriate for all occasions, at any season, and the best part is that the majority of these ingredients are within arms reach in the kitchen.

- 140 grams of self raising flour
- 140 grams of golden caster sugar
- 175 grams of softened butter
- 2 medium/large eggs
- 5 ripe pears
- 75 grams of chopped dark chocolate
- 2 tablespoons of apricot jam

1. Heat up the oven to 140º and line a 20cm cake tin with a little spot of butter and greaseproof paper. 

2. In the most simplest words, combine everything! Weigh out the flour, sugar and butter into a large mixing bowl. Add the eggs and briefly stir together with a spatula or wooden spoon. Once these four ingredients start to form together, use an electric whisk to beat the air into the mixture. The batter should be pale and fluffy.

3.  Core the pears and slice 1-2 of the pears for decoration on top of the cake. Cut the rest of the fruit into small chunks. Apply the chopped pieces into the mixing bowl following the chunks of chopped chocolate.

4. With a spatula, fold the pear and chocolate into the bowl until evenly distributed. Covert the mixture into the cake tin and spread evenly. Apply the remaining slices of pear on top for decoration.

4. Place in the oven and bake for 50 - 60 minutes. Once cooled slightly, remove from tin ready for final preparation. Dollop a couple spoonfuls of apricot jam into a microwavable pot. Warm up slightly and apply a sticky coat with a pastry brush to glaze the pear and chocolate cake.

Devour a slice with your favourite cup of coffee.